11:11

yesterday i woke up at 11:11
i found a random dollar
i got tipped last night exactly $1
i relized it was after close at work at 11:11
yesterday's day 1/11

I forgot to share with you the coolest story ever,

So With a week filled with death and horribleness I actually have a ray of light. (for those who don't know my mom passed away THEN my job was eliminated). Well anyway I went down the shore for the annual Christmas party. It was pretty quite this year unlike years passed where people were throwing stuff and just acting the fool. So my aunt was talking to one of her drunk friends about plants and mentioned this Madaline plant. All they talked about was no matter what happened Madaline would never die. Nothing could kill it. Then my aunt turned to my father and I and askes who was Madaline.

Madaline was my grandmother. She passes away when I was very young. I don't even thing I was five yet. And her death was quick. She found out she had cancer and was gone less than 6 weeks later. At least she really didn't suffer. ANYWAY so my aunt tells us about this jade plant. When my grandmother died my aunt scooped up the jade in her apartment and has made little jades with it. This is now going on 20 years!

I think this totally awesome! And one day when its not so cold I'll take the hour and a half drive to oceangate to get my own little peice of Madaline.

Happy new year baby!

I think the cutest thing in the world the last week was Alan. Alan actually had a “talk” with our son. I guess it was right after my mother passed away he said to Aiden, hey mommy’s sad be extra good because she’s sad. Well I over heard him say that on the baby monitor. It made me smile. It made me smile EXTRA BIG.
It’s not that Aiden is ever bad. He never is. He’s the happiest baby on planet earth. What happen is he just gets angry when he’s hungry. He gets real pissed when he’s all of a sudden hungry and the bottle isn’t right in his hands for him to suck down. And as of late, he gets angrier at this issue. But yeah Alan said this to Aiden and it made me feel special.
I think the biggest thing about it was Alan actually acting as my partner in the last week. My mom’s passing was nuts. It was quick and unexpected. I was totally shocked when, while on the phone with my father, he told me he found my mom on the floor unresponsive. I had just talked to her not even an hour earlier and my last words to her was quit the shit. My mom was quite the drama queen. She also wasn’t really with “it”. Alan’s been right there for me the whole time.
To top off this week, my company has decided to get rid of my job. Last night right after I had finished getting my mom’s pension stuff straightened out I got a call from work. I talked to my awesome boss Kim and said she needed to talk to me. I went right in. Then the lovely news was broke to me. My choices are take a 37% cut in pay and no longer be a manager or leave. It kinda has great timing doesn’t it? The other option is me becoming a merch manager on the floor, but my store manager doesn’t think I’m experienced enough. If it wasn’t for Aiden I think my choice would be leaving, but the benefits are so great, I don’t know if I really have any other options.
When I asked Alan to come home he did. He tried to make me feel better right away. The only thing that makes me mad is well not really of anyone’s concern. Yet I really need to talk to it about with someone. It involves Alan’s work situation. I don’t like it one bit, but he’s not doing anything to make it better. Can someone PLEASE hit him in the head and tell him to please PLEASE PLEASEEEEE better his work situation so I don’t need to worry so much about how I just got screwed!